21st May 2011

I don't know if you'll be checking on this whilst we're not talking, but I felt as though I should write a blog just in case.

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Waking up without you
It doesn't feel right
To sleep with only memories
It's harder every night
Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing on my neck

Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars
I think that he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
I'll hold you again

I wish I could hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
Not tonight, not tomorrow

I've got the feeling that this will never cease
Living in these pictures
It never comes with ease
I swear that if I could make this right
You'd be back by now

Tonight I'm screaming out to the stars
He knows he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
You'll be mine again

I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed

What about the plans that we had
We'd been crazy not to go
Meet me in capeside

I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed

Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
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I keep hearing songs that make me think of you, :(

I don't know what's going to happen and it terrifies me that it could all go horribly wrong :(
I'd lose the most important person to me, my fiancé..
I don't think my heart will be able to deal with it :(
It's yours, that I know for sure, but the part I have left,
The part that's keeping me alive,
I don't know how that'll deal with the loss of you.

If I were a rabbit I'd die over the loss of you :(

I don't really know what else to write for now..

I just want you to know that I love you.
I will respect your decision no matter what it is.
I may try to fight to get you back, but I don't think I can be blamed for that.

Farewell for now, my beautiful fallen angel...


<3

So yeah.. Your face is pretty soft...

Now then,
You get to see another blog entirely devoted to my beautiful fiancé ^___^

Well, for starters, seeing as I know you'll be reading this eventually,
I love you Aby Helen Louise Mary-Kate Harley Ashley Wood.

I know you're sad, but I'm here for you.
I know you think I deserve better, but you're the best for me.
I know you think you're shit, but you're amazing in my eyes.
I know you hate yourself, but I love you enough to make up for it.
I know that sometimes you cry, but one day I'll be there to catch your tears.
I know that occasionally you feel as though you should die, but in all honesty, that's just silly.
I know you think you're a bitch, but you're the sweetest girl around.
I know you get treated badly, but I'm gonna treat you perfectly for the rest of my life.
I know you sometimes think that I'm ignoring you, but I'd never EVER do that.


You're the best thing in my life,
I wouldn't lie to you about that :)
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With Me - Sum 41


I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go...
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It's funny, when I first heard that song you became on my mind,
I mean, you nearly always are the only thing going on up there anyway but the song made me just want you back so much more :( It's only been 2 weeks but it feels like a lifetime..

To be without you is the greatest heartache I could suffer...

I don't know what it is about you..
I know certain parts..
Like these;

You're beautiful,
You're fun to talk to,
You're sweet,

You're genuinely nice,

We have a lot in common,

I love hugging you,

I love kissing you,
I love to spend time to you,
You're a good listener,
You're a good talker,

You're honest,

You're trustworthy,

You understand,

You make me feel amazing,

You are amazing,

You took my heart from the beginning and kept it safe,

You're perfect,

You're my soulmate,

You're mine

That's really all I know though, it's all the honest truth, but there's something more about you..
Something I can't quite put into words..
You heard how my mind is set out, in these 'boxes'
You know that yours is the biggest.
I can only begin to scratch the surface of what's inside,
Even I don't know the true extent of my feelings for you..
That's why I have so much trouble putting it into words.
I just know what I feel for you is stronger than what I've ever felt for anybody else.
And I couldn't have wished for any other person to have these feelings for.
As much as you'd hate to admit it, you're my perfect girl.
Nothing's gonna change that,
No little argument,
No friend who's trying to get in our way,
Nothing.

Even in death my heart will still belong to you.
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I was listening to our song walking home,
Singing along, as you do in public places,
It made me happy..
I haven't heard it in such a long time,
and I haven't smiled so much since I last saw you..
I've grown attatched to you Aby, more than I ever thought was possible..
'I've grown accustomed to your face...' :')
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Hehe, I've got a little gap thing,
Filled with the stuff I've gotten from you,
All the letters,
the Christmas card,
The picture you drew,
The jacket you forced upon me,
The teddy you got me for Valentine's day..
It's the closest thing I have to you when you're gone..
And just looking at the things I have can cheer me up rather a lot :3
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I don't know why I love you so much,
I just know I do.
I don't understand these feelings,
I just know that they're true.
I don't know what I want in life,
I just know I want you.
I don't care for anything else,
I just care for you.
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My emotions took control,
When I looked into your eyes.
I lost my soul,
And I lost my place,
When I stared into your gaze.
Now whenever I see you,
I go to a happy place..
Free from all the torment,
My memories force on me.
I don't know why,
You have this effect,
But I'm glad you do,
For without you,
I am nothing.
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^^^^^^ 
I don't quite know what that was,
I just end up writing my thoughts in these silly little blogs :')
It's all soppy as fluff, but I don't care :3 
It's all true ^___^
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I love you and I always will,
I care for you and I always will,
I'm here for you and I always will be,
I trust you and always will,
You're my world and you always will be.
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 I hope this put a smile on your beautiful face as that's all I ever intend to do!
I love you so much Aby Wood, I can't wait for the day when I know you'll be fine
Forever and ever!

ILOVEYOUILOVEILOVEILOVEYOU


THE END!