It's amusing how we started off... You were hugging everybody and I said 'I feel left out!' and you more or less jumped at the chance to hug me :P It was so cute I almost 'awww'd' out loud xD As soon as you hugged me though I realised that I needed to talk to you, I wasn't sure what it was that made me feel that way, I mean, I was definately attracted to you, but it felt like so much more. Like I already knew that we'd share the special bond we now have.
After a month of talking we'd become best friends, and then that complete arsehole broke your heart. I made it my complete priority to try and patch your heart back up, to make sure you'd be okay. I knew the scars probably still remain imprinted on your soul but again, I was trying my hardest to mask those scars by pumping as much happiness and joy into your life as I could muster.
Another few weeks later you told me that you liked me, I did the silly thing of saying that I didn't think I knew you well enough to like you when really I honestly did, quite a lot... That's when we sorted out when our first kiss should be though, not the most romantic of places... [w] the good old home of the smell of sweaty moshers and the occasional indie fag :') It may not have been very sweet, or romantic or anything but it definately lit up a bulb in my head. I knew I had to tell you that I liked you, and it made me regret waiting so long to do it.
Walking back into town from [w] was rather amusing too, when we went in Tescos and you made me hold your hand ;) And that Zoe person was getting ridiculously jealous of me 'cause of the amount she liked you xD I remember her having a go at me for no apparent reason, saying she was going to beat me up if I didn't stop talking :L I just laughed 'cause she looked so incredibly weak :3
The next day I finally plucked up the courage to ask you out, but sadly you were asked out by someone else not long before.. After a long discussion I persuaded you that you should get with the other person, purely because I thought he'd be able to make you happier than I could :/ How wrong was I? He turned out to be a complete dickhead too, called you disgusting for not being vegetarian, he was constantly calling you an idiot, not in the jokey way I do now, but in a seemingly serious, insulting way.. Even after I tried to patch the two of you up he just continued to fuck it up, I never understood why he would do that.. Hehe, it amused me how he didn't trust me with you 'cause he knew I liked you ;) Even after I tried to help him out he still seemed a bit suspicious xD It was actually hilarious :L He should've had more sense than to hurt my best friend, that's obviously going to result in me flirting with her a lot more and spending a hell of a lot of time with her instead of her spending all of her time with you :3
You two lasted almost a month, then you were finally talked into breaking up with that knobhead by one of your close friends and then into getting with me :) We waited a week, and I asked you out while you were sat on my lap on pit. Jodi complained that I didn't ask you out properly even though I followed my description pretty much exactly ;) I was so ridiculously happy when you said yes when in all rights I shouldn't have been, we'd already discussed it and you'd already told me you'd say yes.. But the paranoid part of me just kept thinking 'Why would someone as amazing and beautiful as Aby want to get with me?'
Our first proper kiss in the relationship kind of failed ;) I took you to the bus stop and kissed you there.. Halfway through I got a bloody phone call >.< Ruined the moment completely by vibrating against my penis xD I actually almost got an erection xD It would've been so awkward if you just felt my penis pressing against your leg D: But it would've been another thing we could giggle at ;)
The next weekend you slept at mine :D The first night I got to hold you in my arms as we both drifted away :) It was honestly the best night's sleep I had had up until that point ^_^ To hear your breathing falling into a rhythmic pattern, and to feel the warmth of your body against mine made me the happiest guy alive :) This was yet another thing which made me realise how perfect we were together, I began to believe that day that I was falling for you harder with each passing moment :3 And the realisation made me that much happier :D
It was heartwrenching when you had to leave :( I missed you as soon as you went, my first thoughts were 'I want my Aby back :(' But then I just started to think of the night before and I cheered up a fair bit and managed to stay positive for the rest of the week until I got to see you agian ^_^ That made me more that positve, that made me super-ultra-uber-amazingly happy again :D
I ended up sleeping at yours that Friday night, it was brilliant :) I didn't go home until Sunday aswell which made me feel great :) I'd do anything to spend all the time in the world with you, but for now the weekends will do, and every time we meet up it's incredibly special <3 Haha, that was the weekend I lost my virginity to you :P We, well you, did have some laughs about that :P You know what I'm talking about ;) It ended with us both screaming at my penis :')
Sunday came, and I went home, started feeling sad again at the fact I was no longer there with you :( It took me two seconds after letting go of your hand to miss holding it again :( As soon as I stepped on the bus back into town I wished I could just change my mind and turn around, go back to your house and surprise you with a massive hug.. It was awful missing you, but again, it made our next meeting feel more special ^_^
Haa, then it came to the time we got drunk in town :') We being me and Sonny xD God, we were absolutely blitzed out of our faces.. Sonny and A' got their penises out, which both ended up on my phone >.< You pulled Brianni a lot, then both of you stroked my penis and made me take my top off :P All while trying to make me strip more xD Then I was sat down and you was sat on my lap ^_^ And I kept telling you how much I loved you, not caring what anybody else thought, and kissing you :) People always say, drunken minds speak the truth, and I think I said 'I'm in love with you' so many times that day that if the words were like real objects we could probably fill the Pacific Ocean :') But we'd need a hell of a lot more space if I was going to describe the extent of my feelings for you.
Walking back to Station then was hilarious :P When I kept dropping my phone and screaming at it, then I almost got beat up by that guy 'cause I accidentally looked at him when I was shouting abuse :P Then you asked my mum if she could transfer money into my bank 'cause you thought I was too pissed to get home by myself so you were trying to get me to yours xD The only good thing about how drunk I was is that I didn't feel the cold on the way back to mine from the bus stop :')
The next thing I really remember is your birthday ^_^ It was pretty great, I got to take you to see Little Fockers and it made us both giggle rather a lot :') 'I am.. The GodFocker' ;) I wished I could've seen you first thing in the morning when you woke up and jumped up and down singing happy birthday but I couldn't :( This, however, was the start of our amazing 12 days together :D We spent the first 2 nights at yours, watching films and having sex ;D It made me really happy again to have to fall asleep in my arms and feel you breathing on my chest ^_^
Then we spent a few days at mine.. You ended up watching me play COD quite a bit ;D I do apologize :( But it's soooo addictive xD It's like 'GAAAAHHHHHHH NEED TO KILL ZOMBIE SCUM!' Then I do.. And yeah... Heheh, we finally christened my house ;D Sex on teh couch when everyone was out at the wedding :') Then going to the after party thing which was actually kind of fun D: I was expecting it to be a bit crap... Haaa, when my Dad's car broke down and we had to go borrow that guys xD It was hilarious :P The odd conversations with my Aunty about boob jobs :P And finding out my Dad was shocked about me having a girlfriend ;D
Then we went back to yours for New Year :) It was quite fun :3 I pestered Phil until he let me have a can of Carling which I didn't even end up drinking all of xD Haha, watching Percy Jackson with you :P It would've been good if you weren't complaining about how wrong it was every few seconds ;D But then once it turned into 2011 we had our first kiss of the year :) Then you complained about how it was disappointing so I had to kiss you again :P Not that I minded ^_^
Then it came to the day I had to go home :'( After spending so long with you it felt like my heart had been torn out and stamped on repeatadly then tazerd and shot with a bazooka :( I missed you more than ever, and it actually almost reduced me to tears hahaa. I'm still sorry for making you ill btw :P
Wow, this is a really fucking long blog xD
Well, this is the part where I attempt to describe how much I love you D:
You are my everything. My world, my air, my life. I honestly don't know where I'd be without you, I'm glad I don't even have to worry about not being with you aswell because we're so in love ^_^
For every breath you breathe, until you breathe your last, I will always be here for you. If I could, I'd devote every single waking moment of my life trying to make you happy. I don't care about my happiness, it's just yours that means the most to me.
I swear to God that I will always love you entirely, I know that you worry occasionally, about things like Sammi and stuff like that, but there's no need. Nothing's going to change how much I feel for you. I'm one of those really soppy people that actually believes in true love, and in all honesty, I believe I've found it with you.
I've already told you many times that these past few months have been the happiest in my life, spending time with you is my favorite thing to do in the whole world and hugging you just makes me feel really good.
With every nice word you say to me, with every hug and every kiss, with every time our eyes meet, with every time I see you smile, with every time I get the chance to just admire how beautiful you are, with every time I feel you breathe against my chest, with every time I hear your name and every time I picture your face, I fall for you that little bit more. I already knew I was completely in love with you, but somehow I keep managing to fall harder. I said to you last night that one day I'll stop falling, and hit a concrete floor and break every bone in my body, but really I know full well that I will never stop falling for you..
To me, you are the single most beautiful person I have ever met. I'm not just saying that to get laid, or just because I'm trying to be nice, I'm saying it 'cause it's 110% true. I could spend all day just gazing into your amazing eyes.. I know I'm soppy, but I'm just being honest :')
I fucking love you baby, with every ounce of my being and every teensy tiny piece of my soul and heart. You're my soulmate, everything about you to me is perfect and my views will never change. I'm quite stubborn tbh ;)
I'm always going to be faithful in our relationship, I don't even flirt with my friends anymore xD I just don't wanna fuck it up with you, it's unbelievable how important you are to me :)
Shit, I'ma have to stop now.. I need to do some revision for my maths exam.
I absolutely, 100%
Fucking,
Love you so much!
Forever and ever.
